This journey is a roller coaster...last week I was doing great this week not so great.
I am leaving to go on business for a week, which makes my other half stressed and depressed.
We went through a not so good time early last year, we had drifted apart. Luckily we realised and dragged the relationship back from the brink..but this scarred him deeply.
Now when I travel he can't get the thought out of his head that I will meet someone else and run off to be with them. Thus splitting up or family and devastating him.
This week had been tough on me he has been drinking a lot.
Also this week in the paper was the eulogy from the sister of the guy who took his own life last week (see post below). It was beautifully written, she is an alcoholic herself (she is and has been sober for a number of years now).
She writes how alcoholics are like hurricanes, tearing through the lives of others and leaving devastation and profound wounds..I am teary just writing these words ..
I felt so down last night and started thinking about my children, what if they have the same genes as cause this terrible disease?? How will I deal with my kids been alcoholics too..the thought just kills me.
Today is a new day, progress not perfection on my own AL-anon recovery gets me through day by day.
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About me..
A thirty something wife to an active alcoholic. We have 2 young children.
My thoughts and ramblings during my journey to Serenity..
My thoughts and ramblings during my journey to Serenity..
3 comments:
We don't know what the future holds. Best just to live in this day and cherish your children. Seems like your husband needs to live in the day as well.
What if's are a dangerous thing. I find that is probably the biggest cause of my extreme anxiety.....the what "if"ing.
In the Courage To Change book it says, "If I am tempted to worry about tomorrow's concerns, I will gently bring my mind back to today."
It was the worst hurricane I've ever been through. I'm sorry you're dealing with this...but I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers because I know how tough it really is.
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