I did not realise how ill I had become, I attended my first al-anon meeting just a few weeks ago.

It had made me aware of my own sickness...the family sickness.


I had been living in denial for years about it, If I look back now I knew he was an alcoholic from day one. In search of my sanity and some serenity I turned to al-anon as a recommendation from a friend.
I had no idea what to expect, I thought I would turn up and they could just give me answers and then I would go away and get to control the situation...oh yes..I had much to learn!
Now I realise, there is no control..the best thing is to accept what is happening and control my own behaviour and detach from the controlling and screaming or silent behaviour I was throwing around.
I have to learn to love this man and seperate him from this disease and not hate him any longer.

Peace.